Fallas Humanas

Y si,hay dias que te levantas triste y te das cuenta que defraudaste personas que te querían,que le fallaste a quienes quizá te consideraban amigo y que pudiste dar más pero no lo hiciste.

Entendes que en ocasiones estas solo porque eso sembraste,retuviste la lealtad,hermandad,empatía,apoyo, y comprensión que podías dar .

Te das cuenta que la palabra amigo te quedó grande y que aún hay mucho por aprender.

Ojalá que si me estas leyendo,no seas esa persona, y siempre hayas sido ese amigo perfecto,que hayas podido aclarar rumores y callar envidias,que buscaste sanar amistades en vez de contestar con rencor,que nunca la voz destructora de otros fue mas fuerte que ese lazo de hermandad,que fuiste amigo,aún y cuando el otro no lo supo ser.

Que pudiste ver esas virtudes en medio de los tantos defectos y que fuiste el amigo que quisieras otros fueran contigo.

Que fuiste el amigo que perdona cuando hubo un error,y que fuiste ejemplo para esos a tu alrededor.

Que difícil es no equivocarse cuando se es amigo,no porque no se quiere,aprecia o valora lo suficiente, pero por que está humanidad está de por medio.

Hoy le pido a Dios que a mi,El me enseñe a ser mas como El. Un amigo que perdona y ama aún y cuando te han marcado con un beso para crucifixión ,un amigo que te exalta aún y cuando 3 veces le has negado.

Ser amigo como Jesus,esa es la meta ,no estoy ni cerca de haberlo alcanzado pero aquí sigo en esta marathon de la vida,en ocasiones cayéndome,otras levantándome,o ayudando a otros a levantarse y algunas veces causando tropiezos,pero espero poder llegar a la meta que es que Dios me abrace en el cielo y me de no el título del mejor amigo(a) de todos los tiempos ,pero que al yo verle y abrazarle El pueda decirme “si,yo se que lo intentaste” .

La Maestra

Por años no entendí porque se me hizo tan difícil hacer amigas cuando me mude, no logre entenderlo hasta hace unos días atras, y es que he tenido el mejor ejemplo de amiga con ella, y ha sido sin yo darme cuenta el punto de partida con quien yo mido mis nuevas amistades. Se preguntaran ¿Que tiene ella de especial? empezare diciendo que para mi su amistad ha sido de gran bendición, y eso valdrá nada para muchos pero para mi, es invaluable.

Conoci a una maestra en todo el sentido de la palabra, una mujer positiva, fuerte,inteligente,luchadora,sonriente,entregada,honesta y pues un ser humano excepcional en todo el sentido de la palabra . Maestra de vida, eso es quien es ella, lecciones de entereza y fe en medio de la adversidad, lecciones de sabiduría cuando ha habido mucha confusion,y lecciones de verdadera amistad aun cuando la distancia nos decida separar.

No es facil encontrar buenos amigos cuando ella es el punto de comparación . Hoy gracias a ella decidí después de varios años agarrar un lápiz y papel, soltar mis sentimientos y aun cuando me da miedo el fracaso o a que lo que escribo no sea lo suficientemente bueno y nadie pueda ver la calidad de amiga que ella es a través de lo que escribo, he decidido arriesgarme. Mi amiga vale la pena.

Fueron noches interminables escuchando musica, contando historias, tomando cafe y entonces mas historias, lo que nos llevó a fortalecer estos lazos de hermandad, que aun a millas de distancia la amistad sigue igual.

Se llama Cristina, mi amiga que tanto quiero, que ha sabido hablarle directo a mi alma, mi punto de partida para ser amiga y hacer mas amigos. Una maestra de vida a lo largo de los años.

Todos deberíamos tener una Cristina en nuestras vidas, porque entonces todos sabríamos realmente lo que es la amistad.

P.C

Just harder

As I try to understand why things happen to me,and as I hold on really tight to His word in which I am reminded that if I am one of those that love Him,then all things will work for good,I ask myself,is it comforting? Of course it is,but how easy is it to wait patiently to see what’s good in a situation? Not easy at all, that is when my overthinking takes control, when I play 100 different scenarios with 100 different outcomes,I end up mentally exhausted.                                                                                                                                           Did I accomplish something? Not at all, oh wait, I  did made myself weary and doubtful,I did cry myself to sleep, and I did place all of my dreams and goals on hold,because my brain can’t manage to work on something else while I wait.

As I get older I believed that learning from my mistakes,and waiting on God was going to be my first option always, but it hasn’t. I am a fixer and I know God has very important issues to take care of, so why should I bother Him with my silly problems ? Why should I be still, when I could be working finding a solution and come to God when it is a big deal only?  Why can’t I help Him out a little bit ,and that way He can work on people with bigger problems?  Well today,after a long day of getting crushed with words and actions that have reminded me that people won’t always see what is good in me,but they will for sure remember only those times when you did make mistakes,He reminded me that He does see the all of me,He knows that sin unfortunately is  part of me being human and that He knows I will make mistakes . He values every single part of me and He sees my Godly virtues and my love for Him.

I came to terms that I will wait,even though is just harder now because I thought it was about to start getting easier since I am older hence I am more mature. I know He will show me all the good He worked in my favor,but He will do it in due time,in the perfect time,and  meantime I will be grateful while I wait,I will cry but smile as I thank Him for wiping my tears,and I will love when I think I shouldn’t. I will get back up even when defeated ,I will not give up.

Different areas in our lives might not be good, tears can be my faithful companion at times and dreams might look so away that walking under a grey sky could become my lifestyle,I choose not to,  because the joy of The Lord is my strength and I am not a coward,I will fight with a smile and never give up,He has never given up on me so why should I?

I was wishing the third post would be a story about how much more successful I am now, but it wasn’t at all, it was another lesson learned that I am sharing with you today.              I know God is proud of me because I am not scared of being transparent, and allowing people to know how imperfect I am,His power will be manifested through my weaknesses. He will work it all for my benefit,and not because I love Him but because He loved me first.

It is hard to wait on Him specially when I know He is working on me,but what its quite easy, is knowing that His timing is always perfect and that no one else has loved me more.

Step by step

If you had a chance to read my first post you know that I am probably not the woman that I was expecting to be at thirty-three.

I wrote my first post a few months ago,but didn’t create my blog or post anything because I was hoping to be in a better place by the time I choose to start the blog and that way I will be able to write something showing how I had overcome all the obstacles,and that even though I felt I was stuck I am now in the path to success.

Still far from success,but I took a step,it wasn’t the easiest one but I did it,now what?

Will I take several small steps and walk forward or will I be scared of walking into failure and disappointment ?

Have you ever seen deception frustration directly into their eyes? 

I have,and quite often,because it happens when I look myself in the mirror.

So how do I start seeing myself as a brave courageous woman,as a lioness that will fight for her dreams and goals? How do I stop boycotting myself ? 

I will hold on tight to His Word,I will repeat day and night what He has spoken to me and believe in that future of grace that He has created for me.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”

 Jeremiah 29:11 NLT

You might be saying “Paola are you kidding me? This is probably easy for you because your relationship with God is so special so He gives you patience and strength “ .

Let me tell you,that is so far from the truth ,I have been such a rebellious daughter and I’ve questioned His plans and His sovereignty too often, but I’ve also repented and praise Him and most importantly,I’ve learned to trust in Him.

No one else wants me to be more happy,successful and blessed than He does.

 

He wants the same for you,He made you in His own image,you are His child and His never ending love is also unconditional.

Let’s start focusing on His plans because I can assure you,His are better than yours,nothing that others might say have a value when it is compared to His word.

“…Let God change your life. First of all, let Him give you a new mind. Then you will know what God wants you to do. And the things you do will be good and pleasing and perfect.”

Romans 12:2 NLV

P.C.

Always a first,this is my first.

How many times have you asked yourself “Is this it?”

How many times you haven’t even waited long enough to get an answer?

How many blogs have you read about finding who you are and discovering your purpose, in this world?

I’m sure you’ve even bought several books that you my think will help you figure out what your destiny is,but honestly I’m now 33 and even though God has called me to serve Him,I still feel lost and I have nowhere to begin.

After reading these much you are probably thinking ” So what’s your point,why even write a blog when you are as clueless as I am?”

I’m completely stuck in life, yes I am,so what can I offer you today through my blog ? Well,I am offering you to be your partner during this journey.

I am here trying to fully understand my purpose in God,what is that He wants from me in all areas of my life,as a wife,mother,daughter,sister,friend,and as professional, I want to feel fulfilled in every thing I do . Please walk with me,you’re not alone ,we can do this together and God is with us every step of the way.

Yes,  as confused and stuck as I feel; I still know God is the most important part of my life and even though I sometimes feel He is so,so far away, but mostly because of me, choosing to walk away, I still know He is by my side and encouraging me through this whole process of becoming a writer/blogger, I’m really not sure how I can call these that I’m doing,but I do know for sure that I’m trying to fulfill one of my biggest dreams and passions which is helping others with God’s guidance,power and love,but also as conquer one of my biggest fears, expose myself to the world and fail,to not achieve what others are expecting of me has been holding me down for years, hopefully you don’t wait as long as I have.

Thank you if you are still reading, because I am sure I’ve  disappointed a few already by saying that I love God, and trust Him,but  somehow be so lost still. I know where He is at; but I not always choose to follow Him,listen to Him or wait on Him and that’s where it all goes wrong.

I’m done walking in circles and more than ready to walk a different path with God as my leader. Let’s do this together, let’s hold His hand and walk together into our destinies.

This I am sure of,and is that His plans are great beyond measure because He is no man so He does not lie,and He is not done with us just like He promised us in His Word,He will finish this great work He started in us.

” There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God  who started this great work in  you will keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very day Christ Jesus appears. ”

Philippians 1:6

Doing this together; with God by our side will make it easier and make us stronger because a triple-braided cord is not easily broken.

P.C.